Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Journal #3: Pride and Tolerance

Growing up Jewish in a wealthy suburb of Detroit in a family that valued education, individuality, and a liberal lifestyle really wasn’t all that hard.  I mean, considering the struggles and plights of any number of other kids growing up in the Detroit area in the 1990’s, I had it easy.  I had two loving and devoted parents who moved to Birmingham, Michigan for its exemplary school system and sacrificed the majority of their combined salaries to put myself and both of my sisters through school without taking out student loans.  I lived in a very modest three-bedroom house on the “poorer” side (if you consider $130,000 per house on one sixth of an acre poor) of town.  Both of my parents held advanced postgraduate degrees from prestigious universities and held steady jobs that allowed our family to live comfortably.  (Note that we lived a very modest middle-class family life in the shadows of one of the wealthiest cities in the state and nation.  I thank God for that every day.) 
            Still, even amongst all of the privilege we grew up with (and our parents pointedly reminded us about on a daily basis), I remember the challenge that came with growing up Jewish is a Christian community without any other Jewish friends.  At a very young age, I realized that I felt like a jealous outcast around Christmas time as I watched my friends put up trees in their homes and always heard winter break referred to as “Christmas Break.”  I felt left out of this “magical” feeling of the warmth of Christmas that all my friends shared with me, blissfully unaware that I hadn’t the first clue how to imagine this feeling.  I was young, but I knew that somehow, in a world where I had always found a place to belong, I didn’t. 
            Luckily, I had a supportive family who shared my feelings and stood with me to make sense of my first experiences with purposeful and accidental cultural exclusion.  We belted out our Channukah songs with pride.  We took advantage of the eight day festival and cooked family meals every night.  Every evening, the anticipation after dinner built up towards lighting the menorah and playing driedel, not opening presents.  We brought my Channukah experience to my school by sharing our traditions and customs with my classmates and teachers, many of whom had never experienced (much less pronounced) Channukah before. 

            Through all of these actions, I learned to be proud of my differences amongst my peers.  Sure, there were difficult times when I would come home from school crying about feeling left out, when I would change the television channel, frustrated with the “Christmas” commercials, or when I would cover my ears and scream in the grocery store because I was so incredibly sick of listening to Christmas music.  (Only later did I find out that you didn’t have to be Jewish to dislike Christmas carols!)  During these times, my mom (mostly, sometimes my dad) would make a point to hear me out, appreciate my frustration, relate to me with her own current feelings or those of hers when she was growing up, and find ways to point out that although yes, our family was different, we still had the pride to not only be different, but coexist with our Christian majority community.  You see, it was never about only taking pride in our own religion: my parents’ message was always about proudly standing up for our differences while tolerating, accepting, and helping to celebrate (to the extend we could without throwing a fit) Christmas festivities.  Pride wasn’t the major lesson: it was tolerance.

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